The Pain of The Search
I am touched by your heart-felt openness in sharing your search and deep desire to change and to experience life from radically different perspective.
I must have been seeking from the cot as, curiously, I got stuck into hatha yoga from the age of 5 and quickly progressed onto meditation and pranayama and spent all my precious paper-round money to buy a mantra initiation at the age of 11.
School years were tough because even though I was a model student, I didn't want to be there: I dreamed of studying in an Eastern mountain-top monastery. I broke my education several times to live in spiritual communities.
Every day I prayed, meditated and begged the Almighty to wake me from this nightmare of being an individual who was uncomfortable with feeling unreal. This petitioning went on non-stop: every breath, every step, every mouthful of food, and every waking moment right up until I went to sleep. And then in the morning as soon as I awoke it started again. I was so disappointed to find the "same old, same old" life. I didn't feel I was an English schoolboy and didn't understand why I was living his life.
I did many incredibly intense things to break this illusory cycle. I exercised until I collapsed, took ice-cold baths and put myself through many painful austerities. None of it seemed to help. Even one second of alienation is too much, but it went on and on for 33 years. I knew pain then.
I can't believe that it's over now. But it is. Because I knew that pain, and because almost no-one could help me, it is now my responsibility to unveil freedom from suffering. I can't believe that I know how to do it. I feel like I have the most precious gift in all the world, more precious than anything kept in any national treasury.
Now my mission is to make myself 100% available to all who want to avail themselves of this opportunity to drink from the living water of life itself because I know no other way that this can be done.
When I receive seekers' heart-rending stories by email, I want to be with them and immediately show them that it doesn't have to be the way it has been - that an unimaginable existence awaits. And part of me is with them. When you connect to me there is a connection and everything you need can flow. The more you open, the more you receive. It's easy to accept when it happens face-to-face, and yet it happens all the time, and everywhere.
What you gain is 100% natural. A gift from life. You don't need to do so many things. You simply receive.
How are we to proceed then?
Shall we meet?
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