Oshana Potentials Meeting
Notes 7th July 2002
It was an absolute privilege to have met you today - After waiting so many weeks, at last an invite to meet with you! - I can tell you I was very excited and very conscious of not building up false expectations. I have to admit I was nervous as we waited in the room for you to arrive - It definitely felt like the Potentials waiting room in Zion City! There was however a stillness that hung in the room.
Once you entered the room, I could at last point to the localisation of this energy that has been so much a part of my life since I came upon Oshana.org. There was a definite 'energy' coming off you, too subtle to describe yet I could point to it with my eyes closed. I was expecting some kind of cosmic event I guess, on coming into contact with you, but what was more apparent was that I felt LOVE towards you. This is surprising to me since I've not actually felt anything at the heart level in my seeking - most of the experiences that I've had can be described more as 'space' or 'stillness'.
Throughout the session I was more focussed on your physical form and the palpable energy coming through you than on the exact words you were saying - to my eyes you glowed with a divine like quality - your eyes sparkled and all I wanted to do was gaze deep within them.
You talked about commitment and the ego/mind being like an octopus clinging onto the real Self, the need to surgically remove every tentacle and being committed to this surgical process until the end. You spoke about us seekers feeling that we were in no man's land, that we were two minds, this is very much my experience now - I am aware of beingness but very much stuck in me-ness and both are equally strong or rather I should say me-ness is the stronger since I always revert to my finite self.
I was thinking of what I should ask you, since I really didn't want the session to end - the moment occurred and I felt that your welcoming eyes and encouraging smile pulled the question out of me - You see I would NEVER normally ask a question in a meeting like this being a very shy and retiring person - however I felt I needed to express some form of commitment and as I said I didn't want the session to end.
I asked how to turn away from the magician's table since I felt I was absorbed in the conjuror's illusions but was being tapped on the shoulder by someone behind me - Your response confirmed what I intuitively felt; You said that I was like a small electronic circuit that needed to be plugged into the larger circuit (don't remember exact words) that I needed to surrender and go with the flow - I was throughout this totally absorbed in the very real energy coming through you, at one point my body vibrated, I felt warmth at the base of the spine and on the journey back home, a definite pressure and movement around the 'third eye' bridge of nose area.
I would very much like to commit to the search for the eye of the storm, the still point at the centre of the tornado and I am prepared for the consequences.
Ever since I've encountered the Oshana energy, I've experienced a deepening of awareness, at times I feel the 'still point' sometimes it's above me, sometimes behind, today it was in the centre of my chest and the world including my physical body rotates around it. Now as I sit typing this I'm conscious of the octopus' tentacles taking a firm grip again and I deeply desire to meet with you again or be involved with service to the source. I feel like I'm rambling so I'll stop!
Just a final word to say that I truly felt privileged to have met with you -
Deepest Love, Profound Respect and Gratitude
PS. Your every allegorical reference strikes a deep chord with me since I'm a huge Star Wars/Star Trek/Matrix fan